I have a lot on my mind...

Three post in one day...you're probably thinking "Does this girl have a life?"
Well, in all honesty, I don't.
I kinda knew what I wanted to write here,
but now I'm thinking I don't want to post it because I'm not sure who's reading this,
and I'm a little weary about spilling my guts.
But, after this "phase" whatever thing that is going on right now passes,
the guts will resume spillage....
that sounds really gross.
not what I had intended.
So, now, I'm going to post the lyrics of the song I am listening to because that seems way more fun than the whole gut spilling idea.

Bigcitydreams by NeverShoutNever

You say we're both little people and you like it that way
But, in time I'm gonna put this body to shame (grow old)
Wear a suit like my old man
Pack up all my things and get my ass out of town

You got it good.
Whether you like this town or not
I know it's small but with a big head it's bound to get hot
In the summer
The summer is a bummer if you can't leave
this pathetic excuse for a town
That holds all your memories
A lifetime of crushes and your broken dreams
To be anywhere but here
But baby anywhere is away from me.

And you
if you got it all figured out
Then what is there to shout about
This midwest town is gonna miss you
Woo-hoo-ooo
Just go ahead and work it out.
But first come on and let it out.
Scream and shout and tell everybody that you're gonna leave.


i don't feel like putting the rest of the lyrics so you will just have to be satisfied with that.

PEACE
Jordan

Monday........ :/

So, I don't know why this monday should be different from any other monday. Except for the fact that I left all my AP BIO stuff in my car which I didn't drive today, I got bit by 3 fire ants, and my best friend was mad at me. Why is she mad at me? I HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA!!!!
I also had a IB GEO test that I wasn't prepared for. I answered maybe 23 out of 58 questions. I'm also wondering how I have a B in the glass when the only thing we've done is make a map of the world and draw a map of directions to get to my house. Maybe she didn't like my maps. That's a load of crap because I even gave her an alternate route on the directions to my house. There is no possible way to get lost from those directions. Maybe she doesn't like me. Well, that means I will always start my days on a bad note. :/
I'm beginning to think that I annoy my friends. They just constantly seem annoyed with me. I was actually surprised when people started talking to me cuz I'm usually the one to start conversations and that ish. I don't think I will talk to people tomorrow, which is bad because Tuesday is my favorite day of the week....
I really want to know why Chelsea is mad at me. She tried to play it off like she wasn't this afternoon, but that just made things awkward. I just want to know why she's mad at me. I don't know what I've done and maybe if I knew what I did wrong, I could fix it.
Well, I'm going to go do my homework like the good little nerd I'm supposed to be. Or maybe I'll watch Hook...idk. I'm too fucking depressed to watch Hook. Maybe I'll go to sleep...

i hate being a senior at the moment.

i just remembered the butt load of homework that i have due in the morning. and guess what? i have a geo test and i don't even have the book with me.
i fail as a student....

................

yay embarrassment!!!!!

I wanna live a life in a new perspective...

I am an overly paranoid person.
I am not a fun person.
I don't invite people to my house because there is nothing to do at my house.
I, once again, hung out with my friends and felt like a third wheel.
I don't understand why people are my friends.
I realize that I am a huge disappointment to my parents.


I really want to change all of what I have just listed. I just don't know how. I really want to know why people don't like me.

Mommie, don't make me go to school!!!!

In honor of the beloved, feared, forthcoming senior year, I am making a few promises:

1. I will have a date to senior prom.....that is of the male gender.
2. I will somehow seduce Matthew.
3. I will not fail any classes.
4. I will piss off everyone who pisses me off. That list is long.
5. I will turn to music and writing when things don't go my way....no matter how much it hurts.
6. I will once and for all disspell any feelings I have for James because it is painfully obvious that he doesn't like me.

Embrace the Nerdiness Vol. 1

Here's a little something that I have noticed....

As much as I wish I could vlog on youtube, I can't. Why, you ask? Because I have NO video equipment. I may have gotten a new computer, but said new computer is without webcam. GRRRR....anyway.....I just thought I'd say that...and now that I think about it, this was a total waste of blog post....oh well.