Hell Yeah, I Want to Work With Mia Michaels!!!!

Okay. I have this friend who is really really talented in the artistic department. However, she has a recurring motif in several of her paintings. And I don't mean to be rude by saying "Hey, it's another naked lady." I really don't. So, if it in someway offends her, I'm sorry. She just has a motif in her art and I was just acknowledging it.

OMFG!!! I WANT TO GO TO THE PULSE SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO BAD!!!! SO BAD, IT'S REDONKULOUS!!!!!!

I have no more news....

PEACE
Jordan

I'm a chicken.....

This is what I want to say to Matt, ONLY because he keeps blowing me off and I guess I should take a hint, but i'm not.

I DON'T WANT TO DATE YOU, YOU NIMWAD!!!!! The reason I keep asking you if you want to hang out is because I am sick of my friends. All of my friends go to my school. All of my friends are super competitive and I can't take it anymore! I want to hang out with you because you are the one person who I haven't known since birth and you aren't super competitive and you're super chill and you don't want to go to college so you don't worry about things as much. I know this makes me sound like a bad person, but I don't care. I'm just sick of all this competition and shit that apparently everyone of my friends loves. And I feel like I'm missing out on stuff and I never get the time to just sit back and enjoy life.

But, of course, I'm not going to say that.

My Secrets Aren't That Dirty...

I don't like keeping secrets. I really don't. And even though I know no one is reading this, if I write my secrets on here, they won't be secrets anymore. So, I am going to write down every single one of my secrets because I don't like keeping secrets.

1. Since the 5th grade, I have had imaginary boyfriends.
2. Until now, my imaginary boyfriends felt real. I would talk to them. They would hold me, kiss me, make me feel special.
3. Now, I can't feel my imaginary boyfriends because it's just set in that they aren't real.
4. I'm sad that I can't feel my imaginary boyfriends because there is a very very minimal chance that I will have a real boyfriend anytime in my near or distant future.
5. I like being depressed because then at least I know I can feel something.

Those are the only secrets I can think of right now. If anyone reads this, which I know they don't, they will think I am crazy. Sometimes, I think I'm crazy. Who knows.

Well, that's all for today.

PEACE

Jordan

You Pick the Insects Off Plants

Hello guys and dolls.

It's been a very boring monday today. The only interesting things that happened were:

1. I got a top hat!!!!!
2. I got lime green suspenders!!!!!
3. There was a rather large bug on my windshield and I tried to get it off with my windshield wipers, but I just scraped its butt along the windshield. The bug eventually crawled away...just without a butt. XD

Well, one of my friends and I have been trying to convince another of our friends that his new band name is HORRIBLE compared to the previous one and that he is losing his focus from the music and INTEGRITY and focusing on the ditzy idiots that call themselves his fans. We really want him to do well and we love his music, but he's getting farther and farther away from his original goal. We just wish he will see what he's forgotten.

In other news, I saw a picture of Matt today. It made me realize how much I miss him. Not romantically or anything. He's just different from my other friends. And seeing as, I am somehow pushing my friends away, I was kind of hoping he still wanted to be my friend. But, it's obvious he doesn't want to, which is kinda sad.

You know what else is sad? The fact that I am pushing my friends away. I know what I am doing to push them away. I just can't seem to stop. I am being horribly mean. I'm also being self-centered. I need to stop. I also talk too much. My friends don't talk much. Why do I talk so much? I hate the sound of my own voice. But, I think I hate silence more. So, I talk to fill the silence. Or maybe it's from all those years of being silent and everyone asking me what's wrong. I don't want people to pity me. There is nothing wrong. If there is, I will tell them. Because, I have no filter.

Okay, I need to go clean my room.

PEACE

Jordan

Song of the Day - "Kids" by MGMT

"An expert in anything was once a beginner."

After 2 months of grueling hard work, I finally finished 1 of 2 scarves I am making for my friend Sally. I originally wasn't making them for her birthday, but I decided to make them for her birthday and her bday present is a discounted price plus some extra things. I'm excited about this scarf. It's really good looking. The only qualms with it I have is that I was not careful when I changed colors to make sure that I changed on the same side of the scarf. So, half of the scarf has color change on one side and the other half on the other side. There was a really cute guy at Michael's the last time I went in there. He was REALLY cute. I'm contemplating going back just to see him and not get the yarn and supplies that I need. Well, here is the scarf. ^ You'll notice that the colors are Ravenclaw, which for those of you who are not RC fans, the quote in the title is a Rowena Ravenclaw (founder of the Ravenclaw house of Hogwarts; cofounder of Hogwarts) quote. I was going to post a link to the pattern that I used, but the website is no longer working. That really puts a halt to all of my Harry Potter inspired knits. Drat. oh well. If you want to know how to knit this, ask me about it. I'm in the process of making a PoA inspired one now and I'm equally excited about it.

PEACE
Jordan

Song of the Week - Capsize by Karen O and the Kids

To Me, Coming From You, Friend Is a Four Letter Word. "End" Is the Only Part That I Heard.

Dear Matthew,
How are you? I hope you're doing well. I'm writing you to say that I am sorry I made things awkward. I wish we could still be friends. You were a pretty cool guy the few days that we were friends.

See you around,
Jordan


Dear Cat,
Please stop acting like we are together. Obviously, we are not, seeing as you have TWO boyfriends. So, don't even act like you're into me because I KNOW you are not. And by the way, marijuana is addictive.

Thank you,
Jordan


Dear Chelsea,
How's it going? I hope you are well. I seriously thought that things would be different. They aren't and I understand that it is my fault. I wish I hadn't said the things that I did, but you can't change the past. I've noticed that over the years, I've been a horrible friend to you. First, I almost kill you. Then, I talk shit about you on my blog and to Matt. Maybe you've noticed too. I'm sorry. I know you told me to stop saying that, but I feel that I need to. I know you will probably never forgive me and apologizing doesn't make anything right or erase the wrong I've done. But, saying it verbalizes how I feel.

I'll see you around,
Jordan


Dear Annie,
I guess it was about time to cut our ties. We're two very different people from two very different crowds. It was fun being your friend. I keep wondering if you were just my friend because I drove you to school or took you places because I'm very different from the rest of your friends. But, honestly, I don't care.

It was nice knowing you,
Jordan


Dear Hadley,
Sometimes I think I annoy you. I don't know if it's true or not. But, everytime I talk to you, I feel like I should stop talking or I'm talking too much.

See you next monday,
Jordan

I'm a Broken Heart, I'm a Broken Heart, I'm a Broken Heart

RAWR lovelies!!!!

I don't know what to write about today. Today has been a day full of crappiness. Except that I GOT ACCEPTED TO UNIVERSITY OF ALABAMA!!!! other than that, my day hasn't gone so well. It's like everywhere I looked, EVERY SINGLE ONE OF MY FRIENDS was with their boyfriend or girlfriend. It was like I was the only one left, besides the people who are afraid to have human contact. I mean, EVERY ONE of them had someone. What the fuck? Is it mating season? I seriously ran away from my friends. At the end of school, I was going to hang out with everyone in the parking lot, but when I got there, I was surrounded by awkward. So, I went back to my locker to get a book I didn't need and went the back way to my car. I am pathetic.

Sometimes, I just need to remember how to breathe. I bought some hair dye today. Black and Fushia. I also bought some glitter eyeliner....it's purple. Now I have normal eyeliner, electric blue eyeliner, white eyeliner, green eyeliner, red eyeliner, and PURPLE eyeliner. I'm so happy about that!

I dress like a dude. I wear jeans and a tee everyday. I never wear skirts or dresses. I never wear the hundreds of shoes that I own, that's partially because I have nothing to wear them with. Oh well.

Song of the Day: TimeBomb by Stephen Jerzak

When the Lightning Bolts Are Glowing I Can See Where I Am Going

Good evening!

I haven't posted in a while. Well, this weekend, I went to my cousin's wedding in Baltimore, MD....without a camera....so, I used what I had: my phone. I took pictures of the wedding party and of Baltimore. It was a 12 hour drive. At one point, when we passed through Virginia, we passed a awesometastic river and I didn't get a picture because I am a dumbass. Well, I was going to post some pictures from my trip and a few from the talent show last week, but my phone is being retarded....Well, because my phone is an asshole, here are some random pictures that I can get off my phone.


yes, chelsea, i was taking a picture......and probably acting like an idiot at the same time....

serafina!!!!! and josh after he cut his ninja hair off....still looks good though

the ATT bars....except jacob had to mess it up!!! jk <3

I See You Nearly Everyday, But You Don't See Me

I really have no desire to go to school today....
But, it is Article Day so I get to stuff my face full of spanish food...
That doesn't seem as appetizing as it once did...
I will update this at a later date when I'm not late getting to school...

Song of Morning - "Night Vision Binoculars" by Passenger

The IB Seniors are at it again!!!!!

Tonight was as eventful as it gets!!!!
We had our annual Talent Show.
As always, I acted like an idiot.
However, one of my friends juggled and rapped (yeah, white boy!!!)
Two of my friends played "Godzilla" in a band.
And TYLER BALDWIN did a tribute to MAYDAY PARADE because MAYDAY PARADE is awesome.

Of course, the teachers felt the rath of the seniors: all the teachers died except Chambers....he'll never die.....well, D-Mill didn't die either, she just went insane....

Like last year, these 2 girls decided to sing...except THEY CAN'T SING!!!!! and they sang the song that I and 3 of my friends sang sophomore year.....ironic that they are sophomores....BUT!!!! 1. We sang a capella. 2. We had 4 part harmony. 3. WE COULD SING!!!!

I hate it when people try to copy..... I feel sorry for next year's talent show. Unless the freshmen step it up, it will be bad.....OMG! there was this one freshman who played "Clocks" by Coldplay on the piano and I died because he was so adorable!!!!!!

ANYWHO!!!!

HAVE A GOOD NIGHT, CHICKENSSSS!!!!

It's still okay to dream, right?

MY DREAM GUY:

1. Dark Hair
2. Green Eyes
3. Taller than me
4. Kind of built, not too much muscle, but not lanky either
5. Really dorky
6. Really passionate
7. Artistic, a photographer or painter or a drummer or a bassist or a singer

For some people, being alive is easy. For others, it isn't

I don't feel anything anymore. I'm never upset. I'm never sad. I'm never happy. I DON'T FEEL ANYTHING ANYMORE! what the fuck is wrong with me?

And In the Daylight I Don't Pick Up My Phone Cause In the Daylight Everywhere Feels Like Home

I was wondering today why I don't have any friends outside of school.... well, the answer to that question's obvious. I never go anywhere outside of school. I'm either at school, at home, or at dance. None of the girls at dance talk to me so I'm pretty sure none of them are my friends.

Also, because I like to reminisce (even on the bad times), I went over the list of guys that have rejected me....it's a long list. And while I was reminiscing, I laughed. I thought my rejection was rather humorous. Wanna see the list? No, oh well.

1. Tyler Bland
2. Nick Robinson
3. Buddy Bruhn
4. Ian Krusinski
5. Cameron Rose
6. Kelvin Dorsey
7. Shane Mitchell
8. James LeCroy
9. Joshua Hayes
10. David Coutoumanos
11. Huebert Vance
12. Christopher Seifert
13. Arthur Cortes
14. Jacob Mayhew
15. Mason McFarland
16. Matthew LaPoint
17. Shaun Boyles
18. Daniel McCurry

I started this list in 5th grade........I'd show you the "not rejected" list, but it's non existance. Sometimes, I don't even know why I liked those guys. Sometimes I do. Sometimes, it depresses me. Sometimes, it angers me. But right now, at this particular moment, it really has no effect. I don't really care at this point. It's not that big a deal. In 11 months, I'll be going off to college. I won't have time to add people to that list. I doubt I will even remember anyone on that list.

I really want some Hershey's Dark Chocolate.......

Short Sweet and Simple! Clear As Mud? I think so!

I realized today that a guy I used to like is a complete manwhore. And I'm glad I didn't go out with him. YAY!

and I have AP LIT with Griffo tomorrow. WOO!